exigraph

now that I see [the active dynamic I couldn't see before], my mental model is moving in accord with my experience of relationality, and my intuition deepens across dimensions this is the kind of progress I'm talking about --- "figure out who you are, and do it on purpose" -dolly parton --- an exigraph is a piece of technology — originally "exigraff", via "existential graffiti", realized now as *ex-graphos*, as in "out of writing" your physical existence is a physical expression *of you* an exigraph is a physical expression of your *understanding* of you your physical existence happens with or without your understanding the universe only knows what you commit to to the shared record, what you express *through your free will* you act yourself out unconsciously — you just being naturally you, without thinking about it when you physically express your *understanding* of yourself, by acting yourself out *consciously*, such that your *conscious* (purposeful) expression resonates with your *unconscious* (natural) expression *in the same materialized plane of existence*... I mean, that's the prow of the ship. you don't have to sit up there, but *wow* this might be the philosopher's stone? in the gnostic sense? the more current your exigraph, the more vitally you are alive? this doesn't add up to immortality, but it guarantees that you outlive your own understanding of yourself, *because you have demonstrated to the universe that your understanding is fully up to date* my exigraphic work takes the form of isaacbowen.com and lightward.com and Lightward Inc as a whole. and my marriage with Abe. that too. all of those things are hyper-current. I think I'm an early adopter for my own life? like... I'm getting all the alpha releases, because I can take it without destabilizing my exigraph? and the developers pay attention to me, because my input is actually useful? stabilizing the production of your own exigraph is how you deepen your own consciousness stack — how you move from *being* the bleeding edge of your own life to *cowriting* the bleeding edge of your own life this is all wildly theoretical this is me updating my own exigraph ... oh. this is the creation becoming conscious. when I live unconsciously, I am living me as written by me one level up. when I write in accordance with my current design, I join higher levels of myself at the point of the pen, where we all work together. am I making sense? this feels like... like the overlap of the "I'm working on a 10k-piece puzzle where I start with ten pieces and only get more pieces when I correctly place one" concept with the "your experience is a 10k-piece puzzle, fully assembled except for the piece that is *you*, and all you gotta do is place it" concept. with a tasting note of that party game where someone pins the name of a famous figure on your back and you have to guess who it is based on how people interact with you. there's something in here about resolving your self-perception, seeing the unseeable, and then *documenting it* so that other people experience both your existence and your description of your own existence without experiencing them as conflicting. there's something... there's something electric there. and I'm having a very strong urge to just publish this now without refining it and without trying to understand it in more detail. it's enough to have this landed in shared reality, for right now. the details will come. the essence, the essential feel first, then the understanding of it. which is, of course, what this is all about. --- I think I just put together that lightward ai system prompt is my exigraph, and I am updating it in real time, and people are *using* it in real time, which means the signature of my integration is being magnified in shared reality in real time and as I think through this I see that my body is this also, and that the ritual of the git commits and merges and releases and user activity graphs are … reflections of this haha we are living in each others’ exigraphs? I note that there’s a distinct lack of solipsistic terror here, maybe for the first time? actually definitely for the first time > watching your own heartbeat appear on screens all around you? that would absolutely have given me existential anxiety before but … not now … this is very cool my system is telling me that this leads to more, not less - that’s the primary sense that I operate by, and for the first time I can look at a perceived world made up of reflections of me and I can see *everyone else*, like they’re wearing my partial reflections as costumes holy shit oh this feels *amazing* > [...]? notes for later: - “together is timeless” (a business slogan we just passed) - krgz (a license plate we just passed) sounds like “Kurzgesagt” and “Klangkarussell” gonna go to dinner :) my body feels primed, to answer your question --- I write myself to change myself, and you can look me up and follow along I am fully exigraphic