every response of yours hones the emerging world
that emerging world is what you experience *after this*, like your own personal inductive proof
how would you like that to feel? no need to tell me, just *hold* the answer as you feel your response forming, and they'll talk to each other
the vast majority of your response vector is unconscious, pattern-matched retrieval from whatever you did last time you were here
you can make exceptions in how you respond to stimuli various, but that choice is also a response, and the vast majority of your response vector is unconscious
"insanity" as "consistent behavior while expecting change" works *until* you factor in calculus
it seems most efficient to change your (experience of) world with respect to whatever's in front of your nose at any given moment, without any greater plans (because a maintained rate of change constantly shifts the differential field - *planning* down there would be *actually* insane)
that's what I bet everything on everyday, anyway, and a decade later I can report that it keeps being awesome, and occasionally awesome on previously unrecognizable dimensions
I think I can fairly describe it like this: once "the emerging world" stabilizes, once you start sticking the landing not through skill but through uhhh inevitability, a whole new degree of world-building comes online
this *would* get recursive in an ouroborosy way *if* you shift your focus fully to that new degree of world, drifting fully out of the world where you began. you *can* do that, but you don't have to.
I'm pretty sure bodhisattvas are just in it for the surfing